Walking on Broken Glass.

Your thoughts have taken their toll

jireh is a realist.
18 on the day of A level GP paper.

getting interested in photography.after a levels i would like to learn hiphop but i think i am the kind with 2 left feet. perhaps i'd pick up the guitar. or fine tune my piano skills. and learn french. hopefully i will be able to embark on all these grand plans and master something new with my pathetic weekends.

i have never experienced love. i have never looked at anyone and felt all fuzzy. all i have ever experienced, and this is sad, is lust, loneliness, and obligation.

Friday, April 3, 2009 @ 12:09 AM

One of the longest weeks ever, I am spiritually, physically and mentally EXHAUSTED.

Thank goodness for the medal, yet I do not derive much joy from it, especially when we didn't win for team event.

My grades are atrocious! I would like to attribute it to my CCAs and all those activities....and yet I know it is not fully because of that. Really need to regain my focus and work harder. 16/25 is certainly not good enough, not when I can get 20/25 last year.

"Not sophisticated enough", "Grade A student".....it is terrible to be me. SO MANY expectations from so many people, I simply cannot let them all down and yet its so straining for me!

I am crazily addicted to this song, I don't know why but I can keep playing it over and over again. Disenchanted. You're just a sad song, with nothing to say About a life long wait for a hospital stay. And if you think I am wrong, this never meant nothing to you.

I think MCR is really passionate about the songs they sing, you can really sense the intensity. This is ESPECIALLY so for the song entitled "Cancer" - really moving song. Its not easy to write lyrics for such a painful process, how do you encapsulate watching your loved ones slowly fade away in a few short stanzas? And yet they manage to do it albeit in a crude way which ironically evokes more emotion. The bald truth is told.

I personally do not have first hand experience of watching my loved ones endure such torture and I for one never hope to experience it, but even I have been moved by their impactful lyrics. Simple though they may be, they really carry strong meaning. Thumbs up.

It always happens during crucial years.

God seems to like tempting me like that.